15. I am thankful for lists. I put everything into lists. To do. Wants. Needs. Hopes. Books to read. Goals to work toward. Things to stop doing. Grocery lists. Things that make me happy. Things that upset me. The next year. The next five years. The next twenty years. I love crossing things off of my list, but even more than that I love the act of writing the list.
Writing a list is the first step in conquering the unconquerable. It organizes my thoughts and makes everything look at least a bit more manageable. When life gets overwhelming, I first take a deep breath and then sit down with a notebook and a pen. I cannot even count the amount of times in my journey to becoming a mom, that I sat with paper in hand. "Get pregnant' and "stay pregnant" did not come as easy things to cross off my personal list, but I could "quit drinking caffeine," "buy skinny jeans and enjoy enjoy your body now" or "go out on a fun date with Nevin and then sleep until noon the next day." Lists have given me pseudo-control when I've been grasping for something, anything to center me.
I have been known to put things on my list solely for the purpose of crossing them off in the next few minutes, hours or day. Some of the things may not be crossed off for weeks, months, or even years but "shower" can be immediately tackled and conquered.
Amandajean-1 Universe-O.
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