Day Ten

7:00 :    antioxidant smoothie

8:00:     red chai tea
DELICIOUS! Would be even better with milk but I'm dealing.

10:30:   trail mix, water

12:30   salad (green peppers, tomatoes, cucumbers, carrots, walnuts), water


2:30:    grapefruit, walnuts, water
While I really would have loved this covered in cheese, sour cream, and tortilla chips, I really enjoyed it. 

8:45    Fish tacos--without the taco (cod, black beans with taco seasoning, avocado, tomato, red onions), water

SO HUNGRY!!!! We went to Ash Wednesday services after work and then to the meeting at Price Lab School to hear President Allen discuss his intentions to close down the school (and in conjunction our amazing daycare). My heart breaks for the students that will miss out on the amazing education the school offers, the university students who will not get the opportunity to work with teachers who are trained to help them become strong teachers, the great teachers who will be out of work, my child and his new friends who are comfortable in their current daycare situation and will need to start over someplace else, and the parents who want the best for their kids. I have not lost hope, but I feel to be a responsible parent I have to plan for the worst. Nevin and I will start researching other daycare centers this weekend.

Things I am thinking today:

• Most emotions makes me want to eat, but bummed out is the one that I find hardest to placate. Eating vegetables just don't make me feel better. I want cookies. Those probably won't make e feel better either, will they?

Day Nine

7:00 :    orange, berry, banana smoothie

8:00:     cardamom cinnamon herbal tea

10:30:   dates, sunflower seeds, water
I got too hungry for this snack. I had a hair appointment and then went to the grocery store. By the time I got home I was STARVING. I have a hard time when I get that hungry. I ate a much larger snack this morning than I typically would, I'll make up for it with my afternoon snack.

1:00:    spinach salad with black beans, tomatoes, avocado, jalapenos, red onions and taco seasoning, water
While I really would have loved this covered in cheese, sour cream, and tortilla chips, I really enjoyed it. 

5:15:    salt and pepper tofu, water
HOLY CRAP! This stuff was amazing. I actually made it to eat for lunch tomorrow and then started snacking on it, offering some to Louis, and giving Nevin bites. Pretty soon I was full and it was half gone. I didn't put in the sugar because of the cleanse and I didn't miss it. I wish I could figure out how to get every single piece with that deliciously, perfect, crunchy outer layer. I might cook it an extra two minutes next time and serve it with rice and broccoli maybe. Delish! I'll keep that recipe for non-cleanse time too.

Things I am thinking today:

• I miss eating with my family. I have spent much of our meal time hiding in the other room for the last week because I don't exactly have strong will-power. The other times I try to eat before the guys do, then at least I'm not hungry as I watch them eat CHEESE. Man, I miss cheese. I may miss cheese more than eating with my family...
• I saw the Easter candy at HyVee today when I ran in for five spice powder (something I have never had but really enjoy) and I only had a twinge of sadness when I saw the black jelly beans. My cleanse will be over long before April 8th so maybe I can sneak in at least one handful of my favorite holiday treat. 
• Still missing coffee...will that desire ever go away? I don't miss the caffeine. I have been surprising more awake. I can't explain it but it's true. I still want to go to bed early, but my afternoon slump isn't as pronounced. 

Day Eight

WEEK 2! Yippie! I made it! I have had nothing but fruit, vegetables, nuts, and healthy oils and spices since February 12. I never stick to anything so this feels pretty great. I like that the diet changes each week as it gives me a new thing to focus on. I really don't think I could stick to week 1 at this point.

7:00 :    orange, berry, banana smoothie

Again, I mixed this up yesterday and drank it this morning. It could have been that Louis kept us up half the night but I just didn't love this today. I think the pulp of the orange juice did something weird over night. I don't like thick, fibrous smoothies apparently.

8:00:     detox tea

9:00:     chocolate peppermint tea

10:00:   grapefruit, water

12:30:   salad (orange peppers, tomatoes, cucumbers, carrots, walnuts), water

2:30:     walnuts, water

6:15:     SALMON!!!!!!!, broccoli, dates (still hungry), water

8:00:     apple, almond butter

Things I am thinking today:

• As of this morning, I am down 8 pounds from one week ago. Now before you get too worried about me (or rush out and start your own cleanse), I ate and drank everything I wanted on the weekend prior to starting. This caused me to retain a BUNCH of water on Monday morning. Also I forgot to weigh before working out and downing a giant water bottle that first weigh in. I guarantee this upped my weight a bit and I lost four of these pounds in two days. I would estimate my true weight loss at just under four pounds for the week. This will slow down considerably as the next two weeks go on because I will be adding more caloric foods back into my diet. Like I said, I didn't do this for the weight loss but it's an okay side effect. 
• As I look ahead I wonder how this three week (21 day) cleanse will affect my eating in the long run. This entire cleanse is not sustainable, I feel deprived of too many things. On the other hand, if this has no long term effects, why did I do it? As the toxins leave my body and I feel the ache as they depart, I understand the need to cut the amount of processed foods as much out of my diet as possible. As I yearn for cheese and milk though, I know I will not/cannot cut that out. The vegan alternatives are processed to death and I cannot live a fulfilled life without pizza! The big change I hope to make is taking the time to bake/cook more. If I want a cookie--FINE--bake some cookies. A burger--FINE--make it! McDonalds and Oreos don't need to be in my life but cookies and burgers can be (in moderation). The biggest obstacle to this change though is what it always seems to be with me, time and energy. 
• The body aches are not as bad as they were, but I still am having them. The headaches have gotten a lot better though. Now I only get a hint of one when I'm getting hungry. I need to focus on the next couple of days on my energy level. I really think I'm less tired, but I'm not sure. I haven't been thinking too much about it.

Day Seven

7:00:    berry-banana smoothie

7:30:    chocolate peppermint tea

10:00:  walnuts, dates, water 

1:00:     roasted cauliflower, sweet potato, sunflower seeds, water 

6:00:     cinnamon poached apple, water
7:30:     chocolate peppermint tea, walnuts


Things I'm thinking today:

• Hot tea is not coffee. It just isn't very good. Maybe if I could add some milk in it or something...
• The reason people don't eat like this is because it's so much dang work. Seriously!
• I am SO PROUD to have reached the end of week one. Tomorrow I eat beans and fish. Probably not together, but we'll see!

Day Six

7:00:    berry-banana smoothie

7:30:    peppermint tea

10:00:  walnuts, dates, water 

1:00:     salad (yellow pepper, tomato), water 

5:30:     butternut squash soup, walnuts, water
8:00:     apple with almond butter

Things I'm thinking today:

• Being around people eating real food today wasn't nearly as difficult as I thought it might be. I was jealous of the great smelling popcorn at the movie theatre, but I pushed through with grape tomatoes. 
• If I ever eat this many vegetables in a week again, I will do it in the summer. Finding great looking veggies 

Day Five

6:30:  berry-banana smoothie

7:00:   detox tea

10:00:  clementines, water 

12:00:  salad (cucumber, yellow pepper, tomato, sunflower seeds), water 

2:00:    cranberry-pumpkin seed trail mix, water 
3:00:    dates, water
5:30:     roasted veggies (mushrooms, spinach), baked sweet potato with cinnamon, water

Things I'm thinking today:

• Maybe instead of a massage I'll treat myself to some new jeans! I really don't buy that expensive of jeans because I really don't care. I like to be comfortable and some of those fancier jeans just don't fit me right. I refuse to pay upwards of $100 on something I don't feel good in. I actually like the AE original boot cut the best, although I do have a pair of skinny jeans that need upgraded. In the last two years I have worn four different sizes of these jeans. Granted I was wearing them up until the day I delivered Louis, but I could open a store with the variety of sizes I have in my closet. The smallest size though, I haven't purchased since 2009 and could use an overhaul. I think walking around in too big of pants looks just as bad as too small (only for different reasons). Since Nev won't have to take me out for a fancy dinner on Saturday night, I might suggest a trip to the mall instead.
• I like to drive Nevin crazy by reminding him that I am the best dieter ever! While it's taken me over a year, I have lost just under 60 pounds. Now while this highlights just how huge I got while pregnant, it also makes me feel good about where I'm at. When he gives birth to our second child, I'll let him brag about his weight loss as much as he wants. 
• My legs and hips have been really achy and sore. It got so bad last night that I couldn't fall asleep. I thought it was because I wore heals on Wednesday, but I Googled it tonight and apparently that's a side effect of a cleanse.

Day Four

6:30:  berry-banana smoothie, cucumbers
Louis wanted the cucumbers and peppers I was cutting up for my lunch so I gave him some.    He would only eat them if I was eating them too. What a goofball. 

7:00:   detox tea

No lemon water/tea this morning because I ran out of time. It's a busy week at work.

10:30:  clementines, water 

12:30:  salad (cucumber, yellow pepper, tomato, sunflower seeds), water 

I had to eat on the go this afternoon and didn't even have a plate and fork. Mixing this all together in a baggie seems to be close to a salad. Right?

1:00:    cranberry-pumpkin seed trail mix, water 

Still hungry after my half-ass salad lunch. 


3:30:     walnuts, dates

7:00:    roasted vegetables (broccoli, cauliflower, sweet potato) with olive oil, water

Things I'm thinking today:

• My weight is officially down lower than it has been in two years. While I'm not going on this cleanse specifically to lose weight, dropping an extra five pounds would be a welcome side effect. 
• I'm nervous for this weekend. I'm supposed to go to a movie with my girlfriends on Saturday and it is going to kill me not to eat that yummy smelling popcorn. Much of the fun we have together includes food and it's hard not to partake. Besides it's hard to be a friend to someone who isn't partaking. I don't like to think of us pressuring each other but I do know I don't feel as good about the cookie I'm eating when the person sitting next to me isn't enjoying one. These are some of the very feelings I would like to work on when dealing with my relationship to food.
• I have a gift card from Christmas for a massage. I'm thinking about scheduling it for next weekend to celebrate being half way done. If I cheat I could force myself to cancel it. Maybe that's motivation...